i've caught the self-reflection virus.

looking back at this semester... lots of things happened... and i spent most of the time in a hermit kinda lifestyle. basically i never lingered in school longer than necessary and had been locking myself in my <10 square meter room eating, sleeping, coding, typing, slacking, surfing, stoning... i guess i m spending 70% of my waking time with my computer. could have married it if it was legal.

as a result, now i am suffering from overdose of solitude... actually it's since the beginning of year4 i guess, first i m losing friends i dun see in lessons, then this sem i m losing the remaining ones. for some unknown reasons, tragically my social circle has shrunk to almost non-existent. now as i see some of my old friends around in school, to whom i haven't been talking to for at least over a year or two, i dunno if i should/i m too lazy to/it feels weird to say hi.

next before i knew it, nus will be over for me and there is all the hussle of shifting house, flying home for my longer period of hibernation in a different country. when i finally come back and try to re-civilize myself, everyone else would be working and the lost threads are even harder to pick up... long gone are the days of over-booking... now writing this blog is my desperate attempt at connecting myself with the outside world but most of the time it just feel like i m talking to myself and no one is listening...

i feel like i m in a very weird place right now... use an old phrase: trapped in my own world...