(now blogger page can finally load)
When tragedy happens, it almost always has a catastrophic effect. Or rather, the bad mood and emotional upheaval can really wreck someone. All minor misfortunes are magnified and all little mistakes just seem so horrible. Not only I lost a family member, I also got gastric pain, got soaked in heavy rain, saw timetable wrongly and missed lecture, and experiencing pimple outbreak as well as a terrible complexion completed with goldfish eyes from too much of crying. Even blogger page also refuses to load. Latest discovery is that my plant which I put outside the pantry window is thrown away by dunno who. It’s just so small only, haven’t been given a chance to grow up… and I just bought fertilizers hoping it would grow faster…
The most terrible thing in this world is not grief. More terribly is while you are grieving life has to go on as per normal. The world doesn’t wait for you. FYP has to be done, digital comms lab has to be done, HR presentation has to be done, tests and exams will come and profs will still want you to report the progress and CA2 will still come. You still have to deal with all those people out there and humor their ‘how are you? Are you ok?’ with weak and fake smiles. No I m not ok, but how many people will seriously care? Suppressed pain will turn into prolonged depression. And depression, is a feeling of suffocation, leaves you gasping for air, leaves you with the feeling that nothing is right.