it's funny that i specialize in control but i can't quite control myself v well. under stress, every trivial thing gets magnified and i blow up or feel sad easily. see even only a spoon can trigger so much emotions in me. and i think some of my friends are having a hard time being around me. i know i m not likable at all these days. totally bitchy. if u are one of them, sincere apologies... really! haiz... i need help for stress management...